December 26, 2011

一一年的圣诞



平安夜的我宅在家
欣赏了deck the halls
吃了顿皮萨套餐
等待着爸妈的到来

今年的圣诞节
虽然没有一帮朋友结伴去倒数
也没有像过往一样都和哥儿们旅行
然而和亲戚家人一起过也可以很温馨
像很久都没见的阿姨一样
每年都能从她手中拿到礼物
超开心的
现在的他们对我来说
姨丈啊,阿姨啊,还是婆婆
看着他们渐渐的苍老
似乎意味着我们都长大了
就像是一个生长过程
没有了以前的逗趣
没有了以往的玩闹
话题也大人化了
什么世界经济走势啊,哪个国家的大事啊
还蛮严肃的
不过都还好啦
至少咱还能搭得上
如果可以的话
很希望他们都别‘老得太快’
少一点皱纹,健健康康的活着
那就好了


让我兴奋不已的
当然是那意外的收获
顿时心情大好,乐呼呼
真没想过
你会这样在乎我
如果可以的我
还蛮想这样维持久一点

这个星期对我来说是个关键时刻
因为是恶魔的高峰期
我是蛮担心的
不过我要尝试去加倍乐观
用平静的心去迎战
然后快快乐乐的庆祝新年!

December 18, 2011

CAN'T..SLEEP?

It's been a while the feeling of 'insomnia' had come to me. The worst part is that I still have to work for a whole Monday as intern. aiks hopefully i wont fall asleep later.
Seem i have left my English behind for quite some time as well. The feeling was awkward because i can't really figure out words and sentences to keep myself writing anymore. Deteriorate of language i suppose! Writing mandrain is such a nice thing to do for bloggies. lol

Typing all this shit out. What is it all about and WHY?
I used to ask silly question to myself where people might don't understand the reason i did that. To be frank i doubt myself as a jerk like i dont really speak well, do well, and all day pretend to be someone that the socially acceptable. It's hard for not being yourself but to follow people's mind-set. Life has been so tough if it continues all the way until you die.

Then you might ask yourself, WHAT have you been doing all these days when you were alive?
Answer is: waiting to die. isn't it sad? but it's so true. People trying to live, struggling to earn money and pay for the bills, food, even insurance to secure their life and survive.
Like for me, why am i studying so stressfully? answer: JUST to earn more money, get a better car, a better bungalow, a better living. All these shits I aint gonna bring along with me when i die. SO WHAT FOR? money is just a tool to satisfy needs. Or in other words, your desires. dont let it control u.

ahh. too much craps around.
im so wanna sleep.

December 11, 2011

因缘:金龙山万佛寺



还记得不久前

在紫竹林地藏法会帮忙
巧遇失联已久的佩珊姐
因次而让我与金龙山结缘
这该是茫茫中的因缘吧

这次上山学佛,静修,当义工
主要是摆脱城市忙碌的环境
让自己能暂时脱离烦恼
放下一切欲望,念头,遐想等
让自己的身心得到最好的清静

在这里的生活算得了均衡
除了生活坐席得到协调外
吃的喝的都为素食,汤水
加上一定的体力消耗
身体里外好像也变壮一些

在万佛寺里每天的行程
除了早课晚课,打坐,跑向,法师开示等
其余的时间会到处帮忙,执行义工工作
让我印象深刻的莫过于最后一天的‘朝山’
在长达五百米的道路上赤着双脚
一跪一拜的念着‘阿弥陀佛’走回大殿
过程虽然辛苦得很
可是能完成这可算得大功德
可为自己的健康多贴佛陀保佑

四天的修行不算多
能够和金龙山结缘可谓咱的福报
明年今日若能抽空必会再上山
再为自己修身养心
再为佛教出一份力


咱的法喜充满
还像很难用文字来描述
总而言之
这些都是给自己的正面力量
阿弥陀佛


*各位善男子善女人,不防到此难得的‘世外桃源’一游
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December 07, 2011

第四集[完结篇]

原本是想把它写得很长很屌的
可是现在睏了
毕竟明天还得早起床
所以就简介的写写吧

说那么快
建筑系第四学期昨天圆满结束
安然地回想着点点滴滴
高潮低落
这学期倒是挺好玩的
除了畅游韩国
还是椅子设计
都是非常难得的经验

说到分组
咱这次回避自己以往舒服的组别
去尝试和其他人合作的挑战
得到的经验也不奈
可以说 never try; never learn
倒说回来,回想起初时的我
有点迷失方向,迷失自己
很庆幸自己先在还是好好的熬过去了

然而说到建筑设计方面
咱自嘲它为‘PLAY SAFE’
说的‘安全’是指设计平凡而实用
没有弯曲的墙壁
没有屋顶花园
也没有少过九十度的墙角
多亏那野蛮导师的领导之下
咱倒是尽量吸收一些基本构造
一些建筑和绘图上的细节
可说从中获益不浅
咱倒是学习了很多有用的知识
虽然建筑物是平淡了些
但这一次可以把概念和设计
混合得比以前来得心应手
咱还得多谢野蛮的他
那个看到拖鞋赌烂
那个让我们留到傍晚六点也罢的人
哈哈

时间方面的偏排还算可以
只是这学期的专注力过于偏心
把大部分时间用来镖STUDIO
将其余的科目掉以轻心
眼视为‘过去就算了’ *傻笑*

总而言之
一个学期比一个更要刺激
附上更多的精神力气
和上千杯的咖啡陪同
一个字之曰:屌!

November 27, 2011

STUDIO 4 FINAL

SEM4 STUDIO: DESIGNING A SMALL PRODUCTION FACILITY
Site: Montfort Boys Town
Built-up: 750m2

story board


for more details visit my coroflot

November 21, 2011

那一丝的甜

夜深了,
你,
知道我在想你嗎?


夜阑人静,是述写心情的最佳时候。
近日风平浪静,日子过得不怎么样
一如往常

可恶的病魔也暂且向我告退一会了
在这刻会考假期里能充分休息一番
也还不错

只是难免想要找个人出来谈天说地
却那么的难,好想回到那些年一样
猪朋狗友
吹水乃是人生乐事!

我們變成了最熟悉的陌生人

刚刚在面子书
看到几米的一些插画艺术
可以让我回想很多关于那个人的事情
以前那个可以让我上刀山下油锅的人
现在似乎还是刻在心里头的某个角落
想你了。

这个宁静的夜晚
虽然没有星星相伴
然而联想和你同看着一片夜空景色
心里头还是会有一丝丝的甜
嘴尖也会默默地往上移
那种纯正的幸福
一点点就够了。

November 11, 2011

致歉篇

各位,失敬了。
上一片的泄气文章是真的太乱来了。向读者们说声对不起!~
随便就说要死,真的太无知了。其原谅我的不是
我不会删除,只是要让它来警惕自己
毕竟那也是我人生的一部分低潮
最近的我好多了。身体也开始慢慢恢复正常的状况,慢慢接触回外面的世界了。闭关了那么久,难免需要点时间来补回什么的。
始终要感谢你们这些疼爱我的卡门,谢谢你们送上的祝福。谢谢你们的鼓励。我想活着还不耐,至少还有爱我的你们。
其实让我最担心的,莫过于下一次的来侵会是什么时候,什么严重度。毕竟下个星期会有四个等着交的作业,两个星期后的考试,和最后的终极考验。想了想还是顾虑着自己身体能否闯下去。也不懂要怎么预防。好烦

好吧,要继续写那超级烦得essay了。
再说声对不起,保证没有下次了。
我不要死,我还要和世界拥抱久一点

November 06, 2011

该怎么乐观

试着去面对,试着咬紧牙根克服这一切的痛,可是为什么还是不会结束的痛,可怕的病魔!为什么你总是不放过我,给我一些呼吸的空间?

已经第四周了。
虽然是有好转一点,可是每天要承受的压力,痛苦,咱还是撑的好想死。对这反复的病撑得太累了。走了,没多久又来了。而且毫无原因的来。

老天爷啊,你要考验我,也总给我一个源吧


没错,这次我脑子浮现了自杀的念头。我也搞不懂为什么。几天里,望着窗外的天空,试图寻找脱离病魔的方法。是否惟有轻生才可以停止全部的痛,才可以去除这个可恶的病?别人总说死不能解决问题。那留在世上,也不能解决我的问题啊。谁叫患上不能治疗的病,连导火线也未知的病,真的要我背这包袱一生吗?留在世上,何德何能去闯人生??

我有认真的想过了。如果我永远这样,会是个笨拙绊脚石。 浪费钱买药,看病。生活无法正常的社交,无法做自己要做的事情。给父母贴麻烦,让他们担心,给朋友为难,对这世界来说更毫无用处,浪费资源。

我真的崩溃了。
我已经不懂得怎样乐观面对它,怎样笑笑没烦恼。
很想放弃自己了。以前我曾说:相信这一切是有意义的。那,什么意义?
有谁能够了解,有谁能够明白,有谁更能帮我拔掉这可怕的病根?
我真的,真的,好想轻生。

October 30, 2011

A WEEK TO BE LEFT BEHIND

Trying hard to survive in these 7 days break. Oh yea, supposingly a so-called break to allow extra happiness happened with friends and family. Guess what? The silencer 'viral' just came back uninvited.
Yes, i wonder, why is this happened every time when there is a holiday period for me to hang out? even that my plans to go travel and hang around were simply ruined. I wonder that's a signal from God to keep me away from all these. Isit God? Isit?
Well then, it's been so tough like the old days. I've been quarantined myself in my room for a week without going anywhere, meeting anyone. Except for a day that i went for laundry in ss15. Weather seems to be a gift from the sky to cool down the temperature of the town. I felt slightly better in these rainy days. My meal list has been totally unhealthy. Cup noodles-mcdonalds-bread-biscuits. I've no choice since i couldnt go anywhere with this weak body. It's too painful to walk around for food. Legs are like sprained, body is so hard to bend, and even hands shaking for no reason. Life has been difficult to have such terrible body condition.

Well, You might think that i loved to complain my condition again, but at least i felt better psychologically to have words putting into this blog. They are being shared instead of keeping inside my heart. This is part of my life. I just can't help to make my life any better. Looking at the terrible disgusting legs and arms make me feel like a zombie. I hate skin problem!!!!!

That's it for my break. Brain is just tired to get recovered. I wish i could spend all the time for something else.

October 28, 2011

WALLPAPER 2011

something that I made for my desktop. It's been awhile, the happenings were all great.

October 26, 2011

DEEPAVALI IN THE ROOM


Happy Deepavali to all the indian friends out there.

Celebration for myself? Oh well, nothing is more important than sleeping. LOL, i have been sleeping all the way in the afternoon until 7pm. Yea, it was a lazy day, yet to recover asap from my skin health again. Looking at the sick body makes me feel bad. Hope can get rid of all the rashes before coming week. Really
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