LEAVING TOO SOON

VOON TSE LIK, you have shocked us all today.

Like any other day, I was browsing through my Facebook feed in the morning while I was waiting the traffic. Until I saw Jun Xian's post about how he appreciated Lik as his most important pal in his life with an ending of 'RIP'. At first I thought it was just a joke ( as Lik was known to hack his friends account for fun), ended up it was indeed something real.

Other of Lik's close buddies ( we have many mutual friends) started to pay their condolences to him. Many had shared the media news of what happened to him and how he was stucked in his car with fire. The whole scene was surreal. It was something we would never imagined happen to anyone around us having caught in such terribly case. It made us feel deeply emotional.

I know Lik probably dated back to primary school time in Sam Tet. He was known to be really smart ( always in the first or second class), a little naughty, and make a lot of friends around the school. We probably know each other but we do not consider each other as a friend. In high school, we've known Lik as again in the smart boy category, with extra talents in art and dance. He hanged out with cool buddies, played basketball, and formed some breakdancing group at school. In fact, we knew him as the 'super cool guy' and pretty popular among the girls. He got the brain, the look and the style in all. Then, we continued to become schoolmates during A-Levels in Taylor's College and architecture. But somehow we never get closed even though we've such coincidence and known each other for quite some time.

I always remember Lik as someone who is charismatic of whatever he does, he always in style. He cares about his brothers (friends) very much, not to mention to his girlfriend. As an elder brother, we can always see his posts in social media, showering loves and accreditation to his sisters' and parents. His public persona was very sociable, well traveled, and indeed intellectual. Even though he stopped his architecture study half-way, but I admired his decision as he could always take actions on things he believed in, and had the guts to make his life as how he wanted it to be.   

Amazingly, his aura continues while bringing us together again, even though it shouldn't be the way to gather his friends and family. Many of us started to recall the fond memories we had with him, and cherished those precious flashbacks with emotions. I wish his family could be strong while going through this difficult moment. And you'll be in heaven and blessed with love and happiness.

Rest in Peace Lik.

With love

LDR爱情生态 pt 3

感觉对的话，就勇敢去爱，努力去爱，没什么好怕的。

故事说到与对方相见以后发生的事情。由于对当地不太熟悉，所以吃的，用的，玩的，逛的，自己都被当成游客来对待。感觉挺好的，像是王子般享用的权利。这名‘导游’还算当得不错哟，让我很有安全感（大加分！）。我们去了博物馆一起聊艺术，逛了购物街探索对方的品味，品尝了当地的快餐店，西餐厅，中式料理等。当然也少不了到超市买材料一起下厨，细细了解着对方的口味和爱吃的食物。

三天过去了。虽然对彼此的了解是更近了不少，该做的事情也都做了 （你明白的），但是该下决定的那一刻仍然不了了之。也许是因为，大家都还未种下那颗百分之百认定对方的心吧。还记得那一晚，他留了我下来，说我别回酒店了，留下来陪他。我们聊了很多，说着说着，他的眼泪从眼角流了下来，有点不受控制地哭了起来。虽然很意外，但这宝贵的一刻，其实是彼此的心链接得最靠近的时候。那一晚特别有意义，让我看见对方心中的那个他，那个最真实的他。

回英国的那个早上，我们走在马路上，接着搭火车，默默地回顾这三天里一起度过的每一刻。他似乎想要给我一个答案，但仍然没说出口。我们也只是随便聊了几句，犹豫不决地握着对方的手直到机场。看着他，像是最后一次看到这副脸一样，想牢牢地把它烙印在记忆当中。离别时我们还是坚强的没哭，或许彼此都有种认知：这个人，我一定会再见的。

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LDR爱情生态 pt 2

长距离的恋爱-人爱得深，分隔两地，心仍相连。

我觉得在一个月里，如果你和对方很聊的来的话，那也该要见见对方了。一个月的时间说来不觉得很长，但要来的终是要来的。哪怕赌上一博，跨山越海都好，就当是给自己一个冒险的奇幻之旅。坐在飞机里的那段旅程，你心里可能会一直处于犹豫和紧张的状态。衣服有穿好吗？发型应该ok吧？见面要说什么啊？ 手心冒着汗，自己努力练习着自以为最自然的笑容。

一下飞机的那一刻，心念‘阿弥陀佛...阿弥陀佛...’好像蛮有用的，可以平复你紧张的情绪。好吧，就是这一刻了。是地狱还是天堂，来看看上天的安排呗。‘这样笑应该还可以吧？’ ‘他会不会拿着牌子写了我的名字啊？’  ‘为什么我会在这里？’ ..... 等等等等的问题一直在脑海浮现，直到在抵达厅见到他的时候才会慢慢恢复意识。天啊，终于见面了！这句话接得有点浮夸，接着和对方握手加拥抱，显得有点客气，有点陌生。天上的云朵逐渐飘到两旁，微微的一道光降在你俩的头上。

啊，确定了，你这一个是天堂喔。

如果真的如上面所说的感觉，那就先来个咖啡纯聊天，凡事都得要慢慢来，越慢越好，不要太驱逐。约个安静的咖啡厅比较好，毕竟气氛是有一定的影响力。聊聊飞行的心情，或聊聊看到对方的感觉，还可以来点小甜蜜。如果聊天中有带黄色趣味的内容可要小心哦。安全第一的原则不可或缺，用自己的小聪明转个话题就行了。从中，你可以开始观察他的谈吐用词，衣着打扮，最重要的是留意他有没有四臭（狐臭，口臭，体臭，脚臭）。开玩笑的啦，最重要还是感觉对不对，就此而已。

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LDR爱情生态 pt 1

爱情最为自然的生态和潜规则大概就是感觉吧。 我是凭着前几段的爱情来说个小故事。

在人海茫茫中偶尔会遇见一个在你眼里和其他贱货不一样的人。一开始会被对方吸引，然后主动和对方示好。时不时传信息给对方，基本的了解了一下对方找的是什么。过了一段时间就开始交换聊天软件的账号，看看对方的照片，然后。。。。。。哈哈，当然没那么快就那个，你会开始拨打给对方聊天，听听对方的声音，能聊得来的话可以到无所不谈的地步也不一定。六个小时，三个小时不定，有时还会在对方的声音中睡去。要看是不是真的能聊，就看聊的过程中时间过的快还是慢。这是被判处天堂或地狱的第一层，你要不是对这个人更有兴趣，就是觉得乏味而不想再浪费时间。接下来，你会想开开视频看看对方的‘真面目’- - 口中所谓的素颜之美，或是想看看他是不是和照片里的人长得一样。

慢慢地，通话聊天变成一种习惯，会开始想着对方在干嘛，有没有吃饱，睡眠质素好不好，工作顺不顺利等等的不科学问题。（毕竟这些和你一点关系也没有啊！）听到对方声音的时候就会感觉安心和小雀跃。啊，原来你也在想我噢。自己当然也会情不自禁的和对方分享有的没的。然后继续的纯聊天，至于聊什么就看当时你脑子里在想什么了，呵呵。

然而，得来的还是会来，就是初次见面的时候。这是第二层的考验也是定生死的主要关卡，毕竟见面相处和用电话纯聊天一点也没有关系。彼此会为这件事感到紧张，耽忧，甚至害怕。害怕见面以后所有的想法和感觉完全改变。要是你看对方不顺眼，他做什么好的浪漫的在你眼里都是错的。（被定型了）但是，如果他让你心跳加速，脸红耳赤，说话支支吾吾的话，你就当然是恋。爱。了。啦。

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INTO THE WILD

I guess sometimes we just have to be a little more adventurous. All you need to do is putting all the risks away and go explore something you are not familiar with.


3 hours train from Glasgow to Oban, the first time. Scenic view from the train, the casual food service and the old cushioned seat. That journey was a joyful one. Seafood can never be missed in Oban. Yes, I mean big mussels, fresh lobster tails and juicy langoustines.


It is a chilling small town that is richly preserved with authentic architecture in a small community. The age population is wee bit older.

Isle of mull was a great place for wild camping. 45 minutes ferry to the island, the sun was warm enough to rip away my frown.

The density in the island is even lesser than Oban. Stand alone houses are scattered along the main road, not to mention the hot bath and sauna of Craignure. An hour walk that lead us to a breath-taking golf coast next to a riverbank, unattended, which become a perfect place to camp.



It feels almost like we are the only living organisms around us.

Looking towards the coast made me more than being excited. It was a motion painting, almost unbelievable. The atmosphere was brilliant. Whilst enjoying the natural touch, the sense of water flowing, the sunset, we cheered our beer with mother nature.


At night, she greeted us with a sky fulled with stars, very magical to see but too cold to be outside the tent. terrifyingly quiet together with the gentle water flowing acoustics. it was a peaceful sleep.





I guess the point is that,

without actually doing it, I wouldn't have know that surviving in the wild can be that amazing. And aye, Scotland's charm will never fail to surprise me.

When was your last trip getting in touch with nature?




credits to eujin ong

MEMOIRS OF LION

this picture was taken a month ago, you were doing all well. But today, you are no longer with us. Why are you in such a hurry, Lion? I never expect that I will never see you again. You were suffering from fleas about two weeks ago. I thought that the injection might got you recovered, but unfortunately, subsequently the vet told us that you have liver failure and heart problem. When he decided to send you away in peace, I just.... wish to see you before you leave. I wish I wasn't being in KL during that critical moment. Your godmother misses you very much, do you know that?

remember when you first came into the family in 2007? you were just like a lion cub. that's where I got your name from.

you were full of curiosity about things around you. you wondered who were these humans around posing?

you love sticking your legs up on the cage seeing what we were doing around you...

your moment of cuteness

that's your favorite spot of the house that you can't help laying all day..

I'm sorry to letting you down sometimes when I told you that I was too busy to spend time with you. I never had the chance to do that again. 

"In the end, life is an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye..."

May you find peace in your next life, and we will always miss you Lion. Please, remember us, remember me.

过不去了

这应该是我目前为止最不想出现的一篇文章。空空的蜂蜜玻璃瓶，螺旋形的灰色云端，是一种心里的反射。熬了一身伤，拖着那身躯，背对着瓶子默默离开了。一直被期待灌满蜂蜜的瓶子，却一直也没再发生过。

第三个守护者，不知道从何时已展开翅膀，往另一个方向翱翔去了。为何会这样？应该也没人真正知道原因。随着时间久了，能变的都已经变了；那些曾经守候的承偌也变得如此的渺小，如此的不堪一击。最为可惜的是，你已经没有要挽回的心。

不知何时开始，我们开始兜着圈子，聊天变得如此的客气。最后一次视频也都忘记是什么时候。我开始制止自己不要对你太执着，不要让你觉得有压力，也许这就是问题始源吧。想你的时候，也只能逛逛你的脸书，看看以前的对话记录。那些你对我说的甜言蜜语停留在文字里的框框，它们变成了一种我能拥有的奢侈回忆，你的声音，你的撒娇，好美好甜。

“我们分开吧”

“如果你爱他，就让他飞翔；如果他回来，你们就是注定在一起的” 

我这么和蜜蜂说了。我宁愿当个坏人对你说这一席话，因为我不忍心的要你一直被我的事情缠绕着，影响了你的工作，生活，还有睡觉的时间。我觉得自己很自私，自私的想从你身上博取多一点的时间，多一点的爱，多一点的心思去经营我们的感情。但我没想过你真正的想法是什么。

我们曾经有个梦等待着我们，也许我们来不及去实现它，但愿我的出现能为你留下一些好的痕迹。

哭了，疼了，也都该爬起来继续努力为自己而活。如果你在看这篇文章，我想对你说：“现在的我学着你最爱的开朗，几天后的我把回忆打包起来了，重新生活。我希望你能继续为那些你和我说过的目标奋斗，还有那些在你生日说过的祝福都能心想事成。踏实的往前冲刺。对不起，我可能拖垮了你的脚步，之前说过伤害你的话，我感到非常抱歉。希望你能原谅我。最后的最后，谢谢你。感恩那些你曾经对我的每一分关心和付出， 谢谢你在我一个人独处英国时的陪伴。或许我们在未来还能当彼此的守护者，无论如何，我想让你知道，你是我目前最开心能遇见到的一个守护爱的人。”

后会有期。你要好好过。

第三位守护爱的人

细雨的夜空显得特别的宁静，让人内心沉淀在情绪上。经过风风雨雨的这一年，让我感叹说为什么在这大都市遇到的人，都不如自己想象中懂得珍惜爱？是不是都市人们都追求金钱，物质或是情欲上的爱情？他们用自己的感官去说服你现实所应该要呈献的一种形态，好比说，当你想要为爱的人编排浪漫，换来的却是：“请你实际一点，你长大了。”当你花心思，有些人却只会告诉你：“如果你给我什么什么，我会更开心。”  这些接近真实的例子好不胜数，让我觉得爱这东西变了质。

是不是大家都不相信爱情了呢？觉得一份爱情是那么的不可靠不真实，才去追寻其他对自己有利益的事物。某种情况下，有些人是因为怕为难自己，怕有风险的爱情而不敢放开的爱。这些人宁可安安定定的生活，找个符合自己从一到一百个条件的对象在一起，就这样开心就好，一复一日。感觉上有没有爱已经不重要了。

很喜欢洗澡时双耳被水呜住的那种感觉，像是自己和四周隔离了一会儿，思维清晰。

当我正要向都市爱情现象妥协时，眼前出现了一道彩光，降临了一个爱的守护者。他发出雷达，仿佛要告诉我这都市其实还会有爱的存在。我半信半疑，毕竟他不是第一个让我曾经相信爱的守护者。这一次，我用了一个月的时间了解状况，最后看到了让人惊喜的结果。

他是一个经验丰富的守护者。他曾对我说：“这个都市的爱，我自己也是从中成长的过来人。你那么年轻，血气方刚，难免会对爱好奇，期待，也不停的会去探索它。” （被说中了）这倒让我思考了自己对爱的看法。我有喜欢的类型，外表。我喜欢这样的，那样的。仔细想想，其实这不像是爱，而只是一种欲望。用欲望发起的爱，跟之前说的‘都市爱’完完全全相同。我领悟了这道理。

一个月的时间内，这位守护者开启了我的心眼。他让我看到欲望以外的东西，一些比欲望好百倍的东西：有呵护，有尊重，有包容，有珍惜和有参与感的爱情。虽然这位守护者会时不时感性一下，有时候会皱着眉头叹气，不说话。可能没吃饱吧他，哈哈，不过他的笑容会融化一个人的心，这倒是真的。

接着，我看到了一条长长的水泥轨道，长到似乎需要两年时间把它给走完一样。道上有一个心形的路木板牌，刻了三个字。仔细看看，上面写到“不容易”。现实终归于现实，倘若要踏上那么一条漫长的轨道，是需要好多好多的力量支撑才能走下去。守护者问：“如果结局早已命定，你还愿意经历这一切吗？”。我毫不犹豫地回答说：“人终须经历生老病死，尤其是死。但人不会因为迟早会死而放弃自己，放弃生命。爱情亦复如是。”我曾经听过一个演讲提到，世界上没有什么对的时间对的人这回事，这些都是人自己创造出来的理论而已。你可能说，当一个男人事业顺利了，就是嫁给他的最佳时刻；或是那女的超讨喜，性格活泼可爱，他是我要的妻子。一个不小心，那男的事业从此以后要常飞到海外办事，你嫁给他就要适应一个人扛家了；一个不小心，你们在一起半个月后，你再次看上了另一个妞，吵着要和女友分手。这些所谓对的时间和对的人，也对得太弱了吧。有一个说法是这样的，当你在某个时间遇到一个人，它注定在那时发生，也是唯一会这样发生。（举手同意！）

和守护者相处了一个月，我们有了共识。我们开启了两人的龙门，正在奋斗的过程当中。他爱说自己老了，我反驳说他成熟。有如偶像剧《败犬女王》，我们都是爱的冒险家。我很感激他的出现，让我发现自己可以更了解爱这门学问。他的爱，很大，很真。期望他会是最后一个在我人生出现的守护者。

3814, 好吗？

BEING AN ARCHITECTURAL INVIGILATOR

It was my pleasure being invited as one of the invigilators for my degree school's student final presentation. Many of my previous lecturers were there to invigilate the students, not to mention Huat Lim, a few seniors and other architects from elsewhere. It was like a small reunion to me.

Semester 6 student's works that I have seen were up to expectation, where visual presentation is good, technical drawings are satisfactory, and one most impressive work  from them is the site analysis video. It was fantastic, I would say, very informative and creative, a successful piece of work that expresses key things about the site. Huat Lim mentioned that the video can sell a couple of dollars to developers in Sentul lol!

After everyone has presented their work, the tutor, us and the students had a sharing session to wrap-up the day. 

This studio focuses on the goal in 'rehabilitate', the design should implement a program that could possibly solving the social issue on site at a minor scale. It was challenging to the students as well, in arguments where the building they design should provide substantial employment, opportunity and independence. We highlighted that, students tend not to spend time in planing, It is the most crucial issue for any projects in practice that the planing of your project requires effectiveness. For instance, the accessible road from the main driveway to your building should be effectively routed. Your client wouldn't spend unnecessary money to build something that is abundant.

Tectonics of the student's design was not highlighted in the assessment. However, some architects pointed out that students should have in mind on how to manage their building at all time. Yes, it has an impact on your site and your building. Sustaining the building is a concern, not in terms of monetary but occupancy. It will be under-utilized if the building serves only a certain period of season or time, despite having a nice program for its user group. Other than that, is also has to do with things like security, location of management office, number of employees in the building, and so on.

As their seniors, i noticed that most of the programs that were proposed by the students are identical: Urban farming, sports centers, cultural hub, and what not. I certainly understand why is this happened since I was like them during my final studio. Most probably it is because these programs are easy to tackle. As if, these programs can be placed at any sites they want as long as there is an empty land. It happened to my studio 2 years ago, and now this culture is some how self-sustaining. I hope students in the future can jump out from the box and able to propose more exciting programs, which would definitely lead them to another level in terms of thinking, planning and designing.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I believe that every birthday is unique. It somehow showcases how much you have grown every year, or what you have done for the past 365 days that created the current you. Nevertheless, you would find out who are the ones that remember your birthday, or who that loves you like your family.

This year I have two new bros, Jeff T and Kelvin T to celebrate this special day with me. They surprised me in the middle of our singing session, with a cheese pie and pop-out-birthday-karaoke-song. Jeff was too shy to sing a song for me, boooo. This two dudes are special to me, they cheerish my good side, and show support while i was not in shape. 

I've been thru something terrible for the past two weeks, they are the ones who walked along my side and help me in fighting my emotion. I had never tear for someone that much in my life. It ain't easy to let it go, It hurts like a thunderstorm penetrated through my vain. What was left behind was a dusty red scar casted on my soul. It was once so pure in loving a person with everything, Maybe this is what people used to say, where love is a process to grow, sometimes in a painful way.

Walking forward is challenging, despite those new challenges that await me in the next couple of months. I want to grow stronger and become a tougher man. 

值得记载的一天

这绝对是新一年里的好兆头，一件能让我喜出望外的好事情。

为什么这么说？

WELL

当然不是要结婚

也不是要当爸爸

更不是赢了彩票

而是其中一宗计划顺利的过了第一关！（暂时不能向外表态是什么计划）

这计划对我以后人生发展可是占据了一个很关键的时刻，倘若能完成它，对我日后要走的路可会增添很多的色彩和机会。今天开会后，终算放下了这一块压了几个月的大石头，心情好愉悦！坦白说，其实我这人很怕死，做这个担心那个，做那个又为这一个焦虑。可能对自己不太自信吧，希望这种处事态度能够改善！（要怎样改呢）

目前有几项计划都在规划和进行当中。似乎这一年会是个丰收年哦。bobbi 啦，我会尽我所能把每件事办妥，再好好去外国念书。

唉，说到这，我很怕那一天到来时自己会不舍得这里，不舍得你。

或许，在我兴高采烈的和你分享着喜悦的时候，只得到你简单的几句话。

还是在我认真地问你一些事，你不想答的，都一律当它们透明。

我知道你每次一忙，整个人就会像机器般无灵魂的操作，没有感觉，也没有情感。

不要再说我不体谅你忙了。我听得好烦

这世界上每个人都很忙，短息服务还是生意兴隆，不见得繁华盛世都只剩下无灵魂的躯体

>>其实我好累<<

我为你已经难过一遍又一遍，坦言了一次又一次，结果还是一样。

我爱你。只是我不想再浪费那些不被你珍惜的光阴

就像我之前说的，塑胶圈终有一天会撑开，那就是离开你的时候。

如果你看到这一片文章，我要你明白，不是我要放弃你，而是你先放弃了让我爱你的机会。

我已经撑得很辛苦。你不要，那我拿走好了。

真是的

感情这回事，还是最让人束手无策的趣事

‘小人飞散’

~~

继续冲刺阿小笨鸭！！

七月:进击的毛小孩

七月份毫无头绪的紧接着来了。许许多多的未知数安靠在肩膀上。自己做的选择，总要自己承担，不管是好是坏，顺着自己的心意向梦想迈进便是。

这么一个抉择，其实不容易。单单策划也有一段时间了，只是说总需要一个‘点’来把它燃烧。就因为那么一个千载难逢的‘点’意外地发生在我身上，才让我这下半年计划有所改革。即延迟了深造，也搬迁了工作地点。所以说嘛，人生并不见得能安排好好的，变数并不出现在我们能规划的范围内。

那天在慈济拿到的静思语。巧合吗

六月可说完全是思想交叉之多的。脑子里充满着迷惑，充满着疑问，跟焦虑。很怕自己做错了选择，也很怕别人嘴里噼里啪啦的是非。是的，我有点在乎这些，但我始终想跟着自己的想法跑，简称为‘follow my heart’。这样才算是过着属于自己的人生吧？水边说的啦。说真的，在怡保的生活有点过于舒适了。很多东西已经有爸妈帮自己做好了，很难不让自己懒散起来。咖啡之城，美食普天，要减肥更是免谈。什么咖喱粉，夜市美食的杀伤力超无敌，也无法忽视。现在离开了，得要好好减减肚子的肉。

新环境，看来也得用时间来适应一下。希望屋友们能好相处，同事能合作愉快。也希望自己能赶快跟上这里的节奏，充实的过一番。拜托啦～（哈哈难得的撒娇）

来吧，吉隆坡。让我在你的头皮上建几座模型吧！

家游！再嘉友！

JULY TO MOURN

The title probably gives you an idea of  what im going to talk about in this post. Time is running too fast. It never waited anyone to catch up. It just keep going on and on and people leave. 

Well, last Sunday was a shock to me. It was a greatful morning woking up with a fully charged body and mind since i'm free from work. I was actually woke by a call from my mum. I picked up and talk awhile with her. She was asking about when Im going home and to bring back my grandma, then later on she brought up the news about my dog, Whiggie. She said they were sending him to the veterinarian on Friday due to his health issue, and Whiggie was not eating for a few days. She continued, saying that Whiggie had just passed away in the veterinarian clinic. I was literally stunned, and asked her whether she was being serious. I know Im calm but yet this had sadden me for the day. She said Whiggie's health can't be cure due to his age, and he would be better to free from the pain by injection. This is how they usually treat sicken old animal. To be frank, I hate this act but it probably the best we can do to cut down Whiggie's pain.

My mind started to refresh all my memories with Whiggie right after i hung up the call. From the 1st day he came to our family he was just a puppy with a tiny little body. Adorable faces, with super cute pose and hyper-active attitude that have brought happiness and fun to the Leongs. I was just a 15 naughty little boy, pretty close with Whiggie that time ( i bet im the closest one int he family). We had fun together going jogging, cycling and playing. He likes following me behind just in case he got lost. Hmm. a smart and obediant doggie. Still remember that he was once fell into the drain somewhere outside our house when he tried to cross over it. But he quickly went up and jumped all around the place again. Such a wonderful brave dog.

As i was growing up, i started to leave home more frequently, friends outing to go, club stuff, leaving home for college, and now university. I never know he grew old that fast and i sort of putting him aside like a stranger. I did regret that i have never spent more than 30mins with Whiggie again. I always wanted to but i didnt do it. Sometimes just because my health i couldnt be touching you for long. Everything is just too late. He is an old dog now, n he left us even without saying goodbye. I know he is now in heaven and I hope you know that I still love you, Whiggie. You are one of the best pet of our family, and may God bless your soul. We will always remember you.

Camille, me and my mei

Another terrible news is that my mei's sister,Camille Ong had just passed away last week due to brain stroke. I wasn't really know her well but we used to have dinner last May for my birthday. She was in comma for a week in GH, but she couldnt make it thru. She used to be my mei's closest sibling and I know it must be really painful to lose her. She is just 29years old. Hope God will bless her soul, and mei, hope that you can stay strong and pick up feelings fast. I'm sure that she will love to see you smile again and live well.

Life once again, proven to be fragile and weak. Hope you guys do express your love to your family and people you care about when they are still around you.
Loves.

因缘：金龙山万佛寺

还记得不久前

在紫竹林地藏法会帮忙

巧遇失联已久的佩珊姐

因次而让我与金龙山结缘

这该是茫茫中的因缘吧

这次上山学佛，静修，当义工

主要是摆脱城市忙碌的环境

让自己能暂时脱离烦恼

放下一切欲望，念头，遐想等

让自己的身心得到最好的清静

在这里的生活算得了均衡

除了生活坐席得到协调外

吃的喝的都为素食，汤水

加上一定的体力消耗

身体里外好像也变壮一些

在万佛寺里每天的行程

除了早课晚课，打坐，跑向，法师开示等

其余的时间会到处帮忙，执行义工工作

让我印象深刻的莫过于最后一天的‘朝山’

在长达五百米的道路上赤着双脚

一跪一拜的念着‘阿弥陀佛’走回大殿

过程虽然辛苦得很

可是能完成这可算得大功德

可为自己的健康多贴佛陀保佑

四天的修行不算多

能够和金龙山结缘可谓咱的福报

明年今日若能抽空必会再上山

再为自己修身养心

再为佛教出一份力

咱的法喜充满

还像很难用文字来描述

总而言之

这些都是给自己的正面力量

阿弥陀佛

*各位善男子善女人，不防到此难得的‘世外桃源’一游

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不速之客

从那天星期五的早上
就能感觉到你的来侵
突然间的疼痛和发痒
是你大驾光临的预言
果然
你铺头了

要谢谢你
给我几个星期的自由
让我玩得有一点放肆
酒精和美女少许沉迷
要你的出现让我明白
懂得控制自己的任性
哈哈也对啦
咱好像已经忘记此事
不能承受过量的酒精
不然肯定会自作自受
好的日子就所剩无几
还是佛陀英明
懂得用这一招来管我
适当的玩乐就足够了

这几天的烦恼不得不让我诉苦
但愿可以制止你的蔓延啦
不想花太多钱在你身上了
咱还有两个星期的度蜜月呢
.

THIS WEEKEND

-taken from thehindu.com

This weekend n friday night is definitely lot to share.

Everytime when i see this picture, i felt we r just too fragile. This is like exactly the movie scene of 2012. As you know the disaster in Japan recently, it's driving everyone's mind crazy. Earthquake and Tsunami in 8.9 magnitude is really severe. Eventhough they can reduce the damage and death to the maximum but still, they cant fight with the mother nature after all.I feel depressed to what its going so wrong in the earth. Not to mention I'm worried that 2012 is cuming. aka the DOOMS DAY. Frankly, i believe it's gonna come. No matter how it changes everyone, what im hoping now is just a better tomorow everyday. Life goes on. Pray to God that the nuclear disaster can be stopped before it spread.

However, life get's fun recently especially in weekend.Getting up early for assignment compilation at Gabrielle house. That's the start of a weekend. But the following hours were awesome. 1st to have my BBQ Plaza dinner with Leo, the new housemate. Gossip of girls of course, haha. N Electric cut happened when we're home. The whole area went dark. Freaked me out though. 1st time seeing everyone's kindness to give help, esp the neighbour Aunty Lim who gave us candle.The night is still young. Everyone planned to leave the house. All tenants are out for a movie at Sunway Pyramid. But ended up the guys are drinking in Amp Square. 1st jar..2nd jar.. and it's 4th jar already. 1st time of experiencing Alcohol with Karaoke, which is fun. N yes, we getting high inside. Im drunk. Concious but cant walk properly and no energy to talk. lol. The night was ended up with something bad. But it's still fine. N i were on bed around 6am. Sleeping like an unconscious pig right until the next day 4pm. I was tired but unexpectedly no headache. N the day continued with a hang out with Kate, the aka PPY. She drove me to IKEA to seek for some useful stuff for my new room, but ended up buying 2 little things only. 1 more for Felixson.

N we went The Curve for dinner. Xian Ding Wei- the Taiwanese Restaurant. Quite a nice place to eat. The food is nice and the price is reasonable.

Yummy Taiwanese food!

Well that's my weekend to share. I love my life even more when i m surrounded with frens. N now it's Monday, 6am in the morning here. Bloggin, doing Research, facebook, n sleepy! Gonna have class at 8. Hopefully the presentation went well later. :)

This is true.

''Get Up. Survive. Go back to bed.''

DAYS WITHOUT LAPTOP ft. J20i

It's been about 2 weeks that my laptop was sent to the factory for repair. But due to the high quoted price my dad said we should try sending the laptop to his fren's whom known to be a it technician.

Well that's been a disaster for me as it's like losing my right arm. I couldn't do much stuff without my laptop around. Not to say blogging :( . There are plenty of stuff to update. Unfortunately, the school is starting next week n my laptop is still left comma.

Using sis's pc to type some words here. If i could use it tommorow i will try update Chinese New year post n whatsoever possible haha.

Little updates just to please my deary readers :)


Well, having cellphone it's been a curse to me. I have lost 2 phones last year n spoilt 1. I have lost the intention to buy any smartphone or u called it IPHONE 4. Well, last week i have decided to buy Sony Ecrisson J20i (Hazel) which likely my-type of phone.

I've discovered it is a 'green' phone after i decided to buy it. Made up of recycled materials, electricity efficient n eco-friendly packaging. Im such an eco fan now. Haha. The phone is quite user friendly too. 5 mega pixel camera, wi-fi available, n a-gps support. N most importantly, it's sony ecrisson which i'm so used to the program inside. Haha. Had a difficulty on choosing the color at first. Red's nicer or what?

Well, my blackiie is really productive nowadays. I could used up the battery twice a day for facebook, video, games and more. Haha, so now it's my substitute of laptop XD.

Be right back guys! :)

BRINGING SMILE HOME!

Wohoo! Finally everything is done, putting my legs up on the table n enjoy the days. haha.

Last few days, i would say it's epic rushing n plans. No choice but have alot of problems just pop up for me to solve. Thank Buddha for giving me strength to overcome all that.

Have been totally messed up once the short semester ends Just the second my holiday starts, problems just pop-up for me to solve. The tenancy of Hostel is the core. I was planned to renew my room but too late for me to do so. Also, im required to clean up the room before cny. Im like what?? i need to clean up everything right after my submission of portfolio and before my taxi come n pick me up. I got 3hours to clean everything! N this is how my superb room looks like during the busy semester. *caution*

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

LOL. I have no choice but needed to come back hostel again on Sunday to finish up everything. :( I've managed to pack up everything except assignment stuff. it's like 50% of all the stuff. haha models, materials, tools, whateva shit that inside my room. haha.

Massive makeover after the whole night cleaning

At the same time, i m having problems for the stuff that i couldnt found a place to store my boxes. Has been so worried that im gonna missed the taxi. Cousin, frens whoever i could think of to help me. But too bad no one actually able to lend me their hands.
At last, Daphne became my savior when she sms-ed me. She turned up and willing to lend me a space for my archi stuff.. She is such sweety n nice! Really thankful, without her i might not able to make it n needed to kick myself ass. Haha

We spent some time taking picture arround campus. Had lotsa fun!
After everything is done, finally taxi came around 4pm to pick me up. We found some jams along the highway but still able to reach Ipoh around 6.30pm! :)

car's everywhere in highway!

N another problem is solved after i've booked the room at PJS 7. So im now like stress-free all the way to celebrate Chinese New Year. Whee!

Cant wait to go KK during Cny. Niway hope u guys have ur great time enjoying CNY too.
HUAT AR!!

流星之美

静坐着大学湖边的石灰梯

享受那宁静的夜晚所带来的舒服感

道听朋友的消息说着今晚会出现流星雨

咱很快的自行到湖边去

抬头望着无边无际的天空

期待着就是那一杀那的美

闪闪发亮的小星星

仿佛述说着你和我的距离

看得到

却又那么的触摸不到

想着想着 它出现在眼前了！
好不可思议的感觉

一度怀疑自己的眼睛

可是还是许下了愿望

希望即将发生的家事可以安顿

心里的感觉

其实没有想象中的好一些

再来，第二,第三和第四颗陆续涌现

尤其是第四颗流星

是众星看得最刻骨铭心的

那么的亮 , 那么的美

咱顿时觉得好．．．．幸福

于是 自私的许了给自己的愿望

心情也开始沉淀了起来

那么的一个晚上

我满足了

虽然幻想着身旁可以有谁陪伴着

分享着喜悦

不过一个人也可以很好

只是两个人，可以更好

最近的心情

好像比较复杂些

融入了家里的事情

妈的忧愁

好想分担些

大慈大悲观音菩萨

请您保佑一切安好

阿弥陀佛

人面不知何处去, 桃花依旧笑春风

院门紧闭，美人何处，再难寻觅，只有门前的桃花依旧迎着春风盛开，情态极妍，颇撩畅绪。

今天的这一击何等惊呼

从远处来的一个坏消息

把我的心情坠入深谷处

人好好地 说走就走

留下来的 亲人家属

伤心无比 自我安慰

看着妈的忧愁, 说着 '以为自己在做梦'

加上形势逼人..把秘密往自己塞

想的只是她老妈子

能够多一天开心

一旦消息传开

情况可能难以想象

希望一切可以好好的平息

人生,

真的太不堪一击了

舅,安息吧