ENDING OF 2014

It is funny because every time when I about to start writing my dissertation, I tend to practice my writing here in my blog. It's just like a warm-up for the brain, LOL. This is the day just after boxing day and Christmas in Glasgow. It was pretty calm, peaceful and cold. Though I have missed the celebration with my family and my loved one in Malaysia.

If you are a frequent visitor, you probably realized there's this live traffic feed, on the right bottom page of the blog, which tells the visitors and the post they have read. Surprisingly some posts of my 'war period' back in 2010 showed up so I read some of them. It is always hurtful to recall the past. But it is not always a bad thing, as it makes me even more stronger in person and appreciate things that I have right now, especially a healthy skin. 

Back during Christmas eve, me and my housemate Zhong Yi, two lonely guys (hahaha) cooked themselves dinner and enjoyed a great old movie 'Forrest Gump'. It's a movie back in 1994, narrating a guy who has a low IQ of 75 became a football star, survived a war in Vietnam, been to the white house a couple of times, playing international ping pong match in China, not to mention owning the Bubba Gump shrimp company. Everything just come simultaneously for him, and he survived. Most of us have trillions of things in our head to achieve, having many desires to be rich and famous. And yea, most of the time we never get any of it just because we are too desperate about it. I believe that this phenomenon of Forrest Gump could be credible in the reality. Most of all, I think his lovely mum is the best thing, probably the core energy that made him succeed in every situation he faced. Here's my favorite quote: 'Death is not the end, it's just another part of life'. 

So I guess this would be my last post of 2014 because I'm heading to London tomorrow till 2 January. 2014 has been a 'grow-up' phrase of my life, the obvious one is of course studying here in the UK, then knowledge and challenge I faced while working in DMP, love-affair-breakup moment, many first times (woops), and so on. Anyway, I had set my resolution 1 week ago, and I can't wait to achieve them all. Wishing everyone a good year ahead!

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2014

AM & PM LOVE

No matter how well we try to neglect the distance between us, we still face the realistic part of it.

No mater how well the internet helps us keeping each other connected, we still have 8 hours gap in two different timezone.

The feelings decelerate over time, whereas it's the only unit measure of our relationship.

Notwithstanding my love towards you are still as deep as where it begins.

WHEN I FALL IN LOVE

A tryout cover on Nat King Cole's "when i fall in love"

dedicated to the person who I fell in love with.

MY KIND OF DISTANCE LOVE

"whenever there is love, odds will be in our favor." 

I used to have this in mind, a strong belief to hold especially when my partner's love is some sort the best I get so far. Let me call this person as Bee. Bee is my partner, a person that loves me more than myself. We set goals for our future and we work hard to get close to these goals even when we are separated into two different spots on earth. We visualized the future that we will have by the time I'm back to my home country and always get excited when we talk about building our very own 'love nest'.

As I remember the time when we got together, our friends thought that we were crazy. They thought that separating a month after we got attached was irrational and at a bad timing since I will be away for 2 years. The bond of Bee and myself will become an obstacle for me to fully experience my life in this new environment, they said. Some claimed that "this kind of relationship will never work", but all these negative comments didn't stop us from holding our beliefs.

It's been 2 months since our last meeting in the airport. Different timezone became a problem where we experienced an inverse proportional of day and night. We never share the same time to get into bed, nor having meals at the same time. We started to get busy with our own life by ourselves. Bee became very busy with work, co-curricular activities and interviews for new job, and myself were working on my studios and dissertation from time to time. We started to spend lesser time on our conversation and video calls since we don't have much free hours at the same time. 

We shared stuff around us to each other from time to time by sending pictures, encouraging quotes, selfies and a lot more other stuff like an ordinary couple would do. Though some stuff became unnecessary to share with Bee when the right timing has passed, or something that I thought Bee might never bother to know. It gets complicated when we talk less, and  a lot of misunderstandings of what we did and said to each other which lead to war of words. 

Thinking back of all the bitter sweet we been through, I suppose love is the only thing that Bee and I believed in and to hold as long as we can. Bee claimed that I have been thinking negatively nowadays whenever I shared my feelings and my emotions. Even though I don't believe what Bee told me, but I understand why Bee said that to me. It is hard for a student and a working adult to fully aware about each other's situation and things we need to handle over time. Sadly, we are still working hard to achieve greater level of understanding about each other, to build stronger trust and faith in our relationship and turning those odds into our love nest's fertilizer. I willing to do anything that Bee wants from me, to the point that this little insect will always be happy, blessed and peaceful by my side (although it stings painfully sometimes)

The journey of a long distanced relationship continues... Let's hope it is a beginning of something great.

与守护者的 第100天

晚上的宁静总会让自己沉思在思念你的情绪当中。今天刚满100天。日夜奔波的你，我想你应该不会像我这么无聊去计算这个。

最近你比较繁忙，像是拥有百臂般在同时间处理很多事情。难怪你有点变了。

这几个星期里，你说了一些你以前不会说的话。这些话有些带着情绪，说不着的感觉让我不安。可能是自己越来越在乎你说的话吧，还是自己对语言的敏锐度变强了？我承认我有自己的担忧。最近开始怕打扰你，有些原本想和你分享的东西也变得可有可无的感觉。

晚上，早上；早上，晚上。我们适应了这种沟通方式：晚上睡前等着和你说早安，下课后再祝你睡个好觉。想你的时候，就看着那本图册，或是用手机看看我们的合照。有时候也会播放你认真弹琴的短片，沉醉在那些你为我弹奏的旋律。

无论如何，我愿意为了你经历这一切，虽然还有好久才能再度拥抱你。对你的信心是有的，只是心里还是存在着一种莫名的恐惧感。长距离恋爱尝起来还真的不简单。意志力要强，更得建设一分非常非常雄厚的信任。继续努力着......继续用力的爱你。

STUDYING MASTERS IN GLASGOW PRT 1

It's been a month in Glasgow, Scotland. Mum just reminded me in the morning about it when we had conversation on Wechat. Time flies so fast before I actually realized it. 

 The memories of the farewell at KLIA and the feeling of the first step walking out from the plane to the airport were still fresh, I was so proud of myself that I can made this far to travel, study, and enriching my experience in Europe. I was like, here I come! (breathe in). I think I have done quite a lot in the past 31 days. Most of the things are new to me, but thankfully i could adapt the culture here in a short period of time. I remembered the first trip that I made was to Kevingrove, where it was located at the West End, somewhere outside city centre. I was so excited to experience every little things like talking to strangers, find own food, look for place to go, and so on. 

I had three housemates, they are Jack from China, Ardi from Indonesia, and Mek from Thailand. They are duper friendly and we used to cook dinner together in our flat. We were so addicted in cooking especially stores like Aldi sells variety of meats, pre-cooked food and daily goods. I started to try and error different kinds of Chinese food which my mum used to cook for me back in Malaysia. So far, I learned fried rice, steam egg, soups, and some simple Chinese dishes. Probably more to come. Jack Ardi and Mek are students from the business faculty for a course period of one year. We are planning to go to the north such as Highland, Isle of Skye together at least once for the landscape over there.  

For my study, studio and dissertation are my main priority. I wish to do a better design and develop better thinking in spatial layout. So far, the tutors have been very helpful. Hospice is my first project, and second project is about designing a bathhouse. They are challenging, though, I find it interesting to explore. Dissertation is going on a right track now, according to my supervisor. I faced some problems at the beginning on defining a much focused title and research. Hopefully what I had chosen for my dissertation title will be helpful for me in the future. To balance up the study life, I continued my gym routine here with the fees of 96 GBP per year, which was so cheap. (if bluddy compare with CF)

Glasgow has been the furthest I have traveled so far in my life. It's lively, at the same time peaceful, and friendly city. A lot of shopping can be done, tonnes of museums to visit, and most importantly the landscapes. I have a few wish-to-go-places on my list which I hope I have chance to visit them when I am free from assignments. Lowest temperature was dropped to 1C and there is regularly strong wind around the centre. Primak became my favorite shopping place, and i tried getting a haircut at a barber for 8 GBP. Not too ugly lol. (People often said Asians can do better hair-styling, now i think their statements are credible)

Live. Experience. Work.

I could finalized my involvement in Glasgow for the past 1 month with these 3 words. Live: blending in myself in an unfamiliar context. Experience: exploring things like local food, great architecture, public transport, speaking slang and most crucially the weather. Work: spending enough time and effort on studies and side studies at the same time.

I believe things are gonna be better over time. This is just the beginning for my 2 years journey. Hope the weather goes manageable during winter,

Cheers!

与守护者的 第63天

在这两周里，

我开始熟悉这里的地理，文化，食物，公共交通，说话的语调等。最近常做的事情是与陌生人介绍自己的名字和祖国。结识了几位朋友，也适应着屋友的习惯。最有意思的就是自己烧饭吃，炒饭，煎蛋，煮菜，一点一点地学着做。慢慢地，将自己融入了这寒冷又热情的城市。

近几天开始吹冷风，时不时会下点细雨。学校开始上课，了解了这里的系统操作，学会了图书馆的列印和代书服务，也懂得哪里卖的午餐便宜好吃。走在道上开始少用手机，因为手指会被冷得发麻，只能把他们藏在口袋里。自己多买了一些厚衣裤，想要融入这里的时尚。

在这两周里，

我开始让自己心态上做转换，刚来的时候觉得自己像是在旅行，现在既要重整思想做回一个学生。慢慢地意识到自己离家人，离蜜蜂，离自己熟悉的家园是多么的远。好像好莱坞电影一样，那些要去打仗的美军挥别家乡几年去完成使命。庆幸的是，我还可以通过网路和身边的人保持联系，只是相隔了七个小时。

在这两周里，

我开始意识到在这里有的，只是自己。处事待人，都归自己负责。但生活上不算艰难，不孤单，多得守护者无私的关心，让我觉得还有一个人默默地在远方看顾着我，呵护我。每一天起床看到那封‘早安’信息，都觉得很欣慰。

接下来的日子免不了课业上所带来的忙，乱，慌。我只想一直努力，一直抱着那份执着，让我和你熬过这一段孤独的挑战。哪怕现实就在我们面前说着不可能，我也不想轻易放弃。

原因？

因为我也想当你的守护者。

A VISIT TO KIM'S DAKGALBI

As a Korean food fan, it never gets me bored of hunting new Korean restaurant when I'm in town. As a farewell before leaving the country, I jio Chooi Lian to try the newly opened Kim's dakgalbi for dinner.

 The restaurant is set up in two rows of tables with a circulation in the middle. It is quite packed and bad if you are that kind of person that doesn't like to have smoke's smell left on your shirts and hair since they don't have a good smoke management in the restaurant.

They don't serve side dishes like other Korean restaurants did. As I recalled the dakgalbi that I have tried from my Korean trip two years ago, I always wanted to try this delicious delicacy again somewhere in my country. We ordered a portion for two, and we took the rice set.

Chicken, Rice Cake, Cabbage, and other sorts of Korean spices. It tasted generally ok. There's no wow-factor for me.

Overall, if you never try dakgalbi before you should come and experience at least once. The food is generally delicious and kinda filling. Honestly it is not a good place to catch up with friends because of the smoke, particularly. However, me and Chooi Lian get into a cafe nearby for some coffee and dessert and share some last moment together before seeing her again next year.

PLEASE BE TIME SENSITIVE BECAUSE THEY ONLY OPERATE FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME

KIM's DAKGALBI
No18, Jln Medan Ipoh, 1E,
Medan Ipoh Bistari,

31400 Ipoh, Perak, Malaysia

Business: 12pm-3pm, 6pm-10pm

Operates everyday accept Monday

与守护者的 第32天

时间快得让我们想抓也抓不住，仿佛昨天才认识你一样，今天已经分隔两地。

这一个月我们一块儿做了好多的事情，有好多的第一次。印象最深刻的莫过于一起旅行的 那几天，好像电影情节般的自在，潇洒，甜蜜。在见到你的笑容，望着你乐呼呼的样子，都会让我感觉自己是最幸福的人。

我们开始了解到对方的态度，处事方法，贴身的大小事等。对方的背景，社交圈，家人，爱的食物，也都在认识当中。越了解你，就越觉得我们彼此的距离拉近了一些。在彼此了解的过程里偶尔会察觉对方和自己不太相似的地方，至少到目前来说一切都算配合得来。

今天分离时，在你眼里看到了灰色的瞳孔。你像是在压抑着某些事情，紧紧不告诉我。以我对你的了解，加上那冷冷的信息回复方式，你有心事了。不管与我有关与否，我都希望是短暂的一种负面情绪而已。是不是不舍得我了？

再过两个周末我就要离开这里，心里充满着好多情绪，也想了好多事情。未来的两年里，这里的人就会变得不太一样，城市的风景也将会多了新的建筑物。弟弟会告别中学生涯，姐姐也将成为人妻。你，也会不会变得不太一样呢？

突然好想不去了。

爱你

第三位守护爱的人

细雨的夜空显得特别的宁静，让人内心沉淀在情绪上。经过风风雨雨的这一年，让我感叹说为什么在这大都市遇到的人，都不如自己想象中懂得珍惜爱？是不是都市人们都追求金钱，物质或是情欲上的爱情？他们用自己的感官去说服你现实所应该要呈献的一种形态，好比说，当你想要为爱的人编排浪漫，换来的却是：“请你实际一点，你长大了。”当你花心思，有些人却只会告诉你：“如果你给我什么什么，我会更开心。”  这些接近真实的例子好不胜数，让我觉得爱这东西变了质。

是不是大家都不相信爱情了呢？觉得一份爱情是那么的不可靠不真实，才去追寻其他对自己有利益的事物。某种情况下，有些人是因为怕为难自己，怕有风险的爱情而不敢放开的爱。这些人宁可安安定定的生活，找个符合自己从一到一百个条件的对象在一起，就这样开心就好，一复一日。感觉上有没有爱已经不重要了。

很喜欢洗澡时双耳被水呜住的那种感觉，像是自己和四周隔离了一会儿，思维清晰。

当我正要向都市爱情现象妥协时，眼前出现了一道彩光，降临了一个爱的守护者。他发出雷达，仿佛要告诉我这都市其实还会有爱的存在。我半信半疑，毕竟他不是第一个让我曾经相信爱的守护者。这一次，我用了一个月的时间了解状况，最后看到了让人惊喜的结果。

他是一个经验丰富的守护者。他曾对我说：“这个都市的爱，我自己也是从中成长的过来人。你那么年轻，血气方刚，难免会对爱好奇，期待，也不停的会去探索它。” （被说中了）这倒让我思考了自己对爱的看法。我有喜欢的类型，外表。我喜欢这样的，那样的。仔细想想，其实这不像是爱，而只是一种欲望。用欲望发起的爱，跟之前说的‘都市爱’完完全全相同。我领悟了这道理。

一个月的时间内，这位守护者开启了我的心眼。他让我看到欲望以外的东西，一些比欲望好百倍的东西：有呵护，有尊重，有包容，有珍惜和有参与感的爱情。虽然这位守护者会时不时感性一下，有时候会皱着眉头叹气，不说话。可能没吃饱吧他，哈哈，不过他的笑容会融化一个人的心，这倒是真的。

接着，我看到了一条长长的水泥轨道，长到似乎需要两年时间把它给走完一样。道上有一个心形的路木板牌，刻了三个字。仔细看看，上面写到“不容易”。现实终归于现实，倘若要踏上那么一条漫长的轨道，是需要好多好多的力量支撑才能走下去。守护者问：“如果结局早已命定，你还愿意经历这一切吗？”。我毫不犹豫地回答说：“人终须经历生老病死，尤其是死。但人不会因为迟早会死而放弃自己，放弃生命。爱情亦复如是。”我曾经听过一个演讲提到，世界上没有什么对的时间对的人这回事，这些都是人自己创造出来的理论而已。你可能说，当一个男人事业顺利了，就是嫁给他的最佳时刻；或是那女的超讨喜，性格活泼可爱，他是我要的妻子。一个不小心，那男的事业从此以后要常飞到海外办事，你嫁给他就要适应一个人扛家了；一个不小心，你们在一起半个月后，你再次看上了另一个妞，吵着要和女友分手。这些所谓对的时间和对的人，也对得太弱了吧。有一个说法是这样的，当你在某个时间遇到一个人，它注定在那时发生，也是唯一会这样发生。（举手同意！）

和守护者相处了一个月，我们有了共识。我们开启了两人的龙门，正在奋斗的过程当中。他爱说自己老了，我反驳说他成熟。有如偶像剧《败犬女王》，我们都是爱的冒险家。我很感激他的出现，让我发现自己可以更了解爱这门学问。他的爱，很大，很真。期望他会是最后一个在我人生出现的守护者。

3814, 好吗？

QUACK #6: KNOCK KNOCK FRIENDS ALERT!

A VISIT TO GARAGE 51, BANDAR SUNWAY

It was a beautiful Sunday morning, a cup of nice coffee and sinful breakfast was so necessary. Garage 51 is easily spotted by its unique graffiti wall and color. It was located at one of the shops in front of Sunway University.

As you can see finding parking was a quite a pain in the xxx, people tend to double park around the cafe ( not a pleasant thing). We got a little luck that day in getting ourselves a parking spot while we got there.

A waiter opened the door for us and we were welcomed. It was packed with other customers, everyone was enjoying their food. We got ourselves a table on top of the container, which was being designed into a kitchen below.

 Food wise, they serve variety of English breakfast, the usual. I ordered the one listed in brunch's special, chicken piccata with couscous. It was my first time trying couscous, a type of North African semolina in granules made from curshed durum wheat. It was served with Avocado and a fried poached egg. It was delicious.

Up to trend huh? Well it's world cup, everybody loves it. This is the outdoor dining area, as you can see some of their furniture are garage-inspired.

A view from where we were sitting. Since the cafe is seated at one of the shophouses, I believe it was designed into a double volume space by taking out the upper floor area. It totally helped in giving a better sense of soothe to the customers.

They have a brunch at Solaris Dutamas too, namely Coffee Societe.

Garage 51
51, Jalan PJS 11/9,
Bandar Sunway,
46150 Selangor

11am-11pm daily
(closed on monday)

Ratings:

Price: 3/5 Average (imposes 16%tax) Customer Service: 4/5
Food: 3/5
Environment: 4/5

HE WAS JUST A KID WHEN I KNOW HIM

As I was passing by the housing area of jalan kampar, I went to pay a visit to a house that I was once involved designing while working in Kuee architects. It doesn't take me long to look for the house. 

this is how it looks like in Feb 2012

pool view

I still remember while doing the 3D rendering, we struggled on getting design approval from our client. This usually happened when the client doesn't know what they really want. When we come to this design, it was already 3-4 proposal before it. Well, sometimes after your client went travelling outside the country, they saw buildings they love and tend to give inputs into theirs when they come back. Sometimes the ideas may work, but most of the time they don't.

he is all grown-up in 2014

I think there must be a lot of decision making moments during construction period, as you can see it doesn't came out as proposed. Money-Time-Quality, the usual. This final design looks decent, just that I think it somehow loses an identity. The car porch roof is definitely a spoiler :(

Less is more??


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BEING AN ARCHITECTURAL INVIGILATOR

It was my pleasure being invited as one of the invigilators for my degree school's student final presentation. Many of my previous lecturers were there to invigilate the students, not to mention Huat Lim, a few seniors and other architects from elsewhere. It was like a small reunion to me.

Semester 6 student's works that I have seen were up to expectation, where visual presentation is good, technical drawings are satisfactory, and one most impressive work  from them is the site analysis video. It was fantastic, I would say, very informative and creative, a successful piece of work that expresses key things about the site. Huat Lim mentioned that the video can sell a couple of dollars to developers in Sentul lol!

After everyone has presented their work, the tutor, us and the students had a sharing session to wrap-up the day. 

This studio focuses on the goal in 'rehabilitate', the design should implement a program that could possibly solving the social issue on site at a minor scale. It was challenging to the students as well, in arguments where the building they design should provide substantial employment, opportunity and independence. We highlighted that, students tend not to spend time in planing, It is the most crucial issue for any projects in practice that the planing of your project requires effectiveness. For instance, the accessible road from the main driveway to your building should be effectively routed. Your client wouldn't spend unnecessary money to build something that is abundant.

Tectonics of the student's design was not highlighted in the assessment. However, some architects pointed out that students should have in mind on how to manage their building at all time. Yes, it has an impact on your site and your building. Sustaining the building is a concern, not in terms of monetary but occupancy. It will be under-utilized if the building serves only a certain period of season or time, despite having a nice program for its user group. Other than that, is also has to do with things like security, location of management office, number of employees in the building, and so on.

As their seniors, i noticed that most of the programs that were proposed by the students are identical: Urban farming, sports centers, cultural hub, and what not. I certainly understand why is this happened since I was like them during my final studio. Most probably it is because these programs are easy to tackle. As if, these programs can be placed at any sites they want as long as there is an empty land. It happened to my studio 2 years ago, and now this culture is some how self-sustaining. I hope students in the future can jump out from the box and able to propose more exciting programs, which would definitely lead them to another level in terms of thinking, planning and designing.

SHOPPING MALL DESIGN

While working in DMP Architects I get to propose a design for a shopping mall renovation project in Malacca. Everyone knows that the great thing about Malacca is their culture and tradition. However, These luxurious of arts and culture don't seem to be expressed much in the urban context, especially the new towers and high rises in town. 

My design tends to showcase a blend of traditional and new elements as a whole, where both the old structure and the new towers are connected. New technologies, especially on the HVAC is crucial in order to make a successful planing that promote sustainability. From the environment perspective, the site is considered as low density of landscape. Greens are proposed as a cladding, which would works both as a shading device and compensate a habitat for the biotic constituents.

extracted from tennysonlee.com

Baba and Nyonya (peranakan) culture in Malacca has its unique fusion from the two cultures. On my design, I tend to extract the art from their traditional clothing into the facade of the old structure. The ladies traditional clothing has striking colors and patterns in their batiks, shoes, accessories and what not. By adding a bright red color with these unique patterns, it forms a defined texture that could delivery its origin by its own.

What if a building that could reminds you about your ancestors, at the same time providing you your needs and comfort in the future? I think it would be really cool

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A VISIT TO RED BEANBAG CAFE, PUBLIKA, SOLARIS DUTAMAS

It was a lovely Saturday morning, Kate and I went for a decent breakfast with my sister in town. We decided to give a try on the red beanbag cafe in Publika as the online rating was satisfactory. We were expecting a crowd, as what we thought we need to queue for our table. We were given a tag that comes with food name (we got Latte). We got our table roughly after 15mins of waiting.

That's how the interior ambiance of the cafe look like. We ordered different sets so that we can have sip on each other's meal. You may find it difficult to read the menu because they have funny names for the food.

closed-up Sumo (RM22.00)

Kate ordered Sumo, some not so typical breakfast as you can see. Grilled salmon with poached eggs, served with spinach. Balanced and tasty breakfast to start a day. Basically it has nothing to do with Jap's Sumo at all. @@

closed-up Super Awesome Fryup (RM26.00)

My sister has a big appetite ( haha). She ordered the Super Awesome Fryup, basically an English breakfast that has everything you need from cabs to protein. Love the scramble eggs

The Atlantic (RM22.00)

For myself, I wanted to have some lite breakfast ( actually i saw a lot table having this meal ) so I ordered the Atlantic. Fresh salmon served with poached eggs and mushroom on a toast. It was quite tasty, but it's definitely not a portion that can feed a typical guy. Again, why Atlantic???? 

I think the best part from what I've tasted is probably the egg. They have their own recipe (I guess) which I think is different from other cafe. The environment, somehow was abit too noisy for me.It is packed with crowd from the time I came into the cafe, and remained noisy when I leave the place. Anyway, the waiters/waitress are polite and friendly.

Latte (RM9.00)

Red BeanBag Cafe

Lot A4-10-8, Solaris Dutamas, Jalan Dutam

Tel: 03-6211 5116

Operating Hours:

Tue-Thu 10am-10pm

Fri 10am-12am

Sat 9:30am-12am

Sun 9:30am-10pm

Ratings:

Price: 3/5 Average (imposes 16%tax) Customer Service: 4/5
Food: 4/5
Environment: 2.5/5

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I believe that every birthday is unique. It somehow showcases how much you have grown every year, or what you have done for the past 365 days that created the current you. Nevertheless, you would find out who are the ones that remember your birthday, or who that loves you like your family.

This year I have two new bros, Jeff T and Kelvin T to celebrate this special day with me. They surprised me in the middle of our singing session, with a cheese pie and pop-out-birthday-karaoke-song. Jeff was too shy to sing a song for me, boooo. This two dudes are special to me, they cheerish my good side, and show support while i was not in shape. 

I've been thru something terrible for the past two weeks, they are the ones who walked along my side and help me in fighting my emotion. I had never tear for someone that much in my life. It ain't easy to let it go, It hurts like a thunderstorm penetrated through my vain. What was left behind was a dusty red scar casted on my soul. It was once so pure in loving a person with everything, Maybe this is what people used to say, where love is a process to grow, sometimes in a painful way.

Walking forward is challenging, despite those new challenges that await me in the next couple of months. I want to grow stronger and become a tougher man. 

平凡的周末，复杂的心情

当心里的自己感觉到需要避风港的时候，这里就会出现类似的文章。

这个周末我病了，不过也只是小病，轻微的发烧和头痛。妈子给的 paracetamol 的确有劲，吞了药再睡一觉就可以爬起来杀只老虎什么的。不过这不是重点，只是接下来想说的其中一部分。

今天我们又冷战了。原因又是一样的，陈旧的，那些无微不至的小事情。它还是以往的爱抱怨我的情绪化，不过这次它加了一句：你很难安抚。这句话倒是听进骨子里去了，在你面前情绪化只是一种我自己很自然的表现，原来对你会造成困扰。我真的错了吗？ 我想了想，可能对你的态度就是真性情，毫不修饰的呈现在你面前。可能真的苦了你了。

我也明白，其实两个人在一起，其实需要让另一半呼吸新鲜空气。就算周末，朋友聚会挺重要的，那可以增加彼此的感情，这点我懂得。两个人不一定要无时无刻的粘着对方，只不过，连一声通知都没有就有点太过分了，加上半天拨不通的电话和不被恢复的信息，会让我担心的。它会知道吗？

我很想痛骂它一顿，就像那些视频出现情侣在街上打起来的情节一样。当然，那只是一种联想，我觉得自己很白痴，竟然想到这种暴力且无意义的举动。

我常常觉得自己很幸运，能够认识到那么优秀的它。如果离开它，那会是一个怎么样的生活呢？回去一个人游荡的浪子生活，还是关在房间里埋头哀天哀地的单身汉？无论如何，我们的有效期限会在这四个月后一目了然。我非常的不想迎接那天的来临。。。

我告诉它，今晚我很想它。我说，当你的聚会完了，有空了，打通电话给我吧。现在已经凌晨一点了，它可能太累了睡着了吧。

在一起就要考验自己的不是，让对方能够让自己变得更好的自己。我惟有这样对自己说了。。如果你有建议，不妨提提看，毕竟旁观者清。

HIGH RISES DESIGN

Development in Kuala Lumpur is going real fast, this phenomena had lead to a disaster where buildings look very similar to one and another. This project consists two blocks of 16 stories condominium, me and my colleague Vince try to address the design by emphasizing frames. We intend to break the language showing the typical layering, RC copping and even the usage of louvers. We proposed multiple balconies to express continuity within spaces.

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值得记载的一天

这绝对是新一年里的好兆头，一件能让我喜出望外的好事情。

为什么这么说？

WELL

当然不是要结婚

也不是要当爸爸

更不是赢了彩票

而是其中一宗计划顺利的过了第一关！（暂时不能向外表态是什么计划）

这计划对我以后人生发展可是占据了一个很关键的时刻，倘若能完成它，对我日后要走的路可会增添很多的色彩和机会。今天开会后，终算放下了这一块压了几个月的大石头，心情好愉悦！坦白说，其实我这人很怕死，做这个担心那个，做那个又为这一个焦虑。可能对自己不太自信吧，希望这种处事态度能够改善！（要怎样改呢）

目前有几项计划都在规划和进行当中。似乎这一年会是个丰收年哦。bobbi 啦，我会尽我所能把每件事办妥，再好好去外国念书。

唉，说到这，我很怕那一天到来时自己会不舍得这里，不舍得你。

或许，在我兴高采烈的和你分享着喜悦的时候，只得到你简单的几句话。

还是在我认真地问你一些事，你不想答的，都一律当它们透明。

我知道你每次一忙，整个人就会像机器般无灵魂的操作，没有感觉，也没有情感。

不要再说我不体谅你忙了。我听得好烦

这世界上每个人都很忙，短息服务还是生意兴隆，不见得繁华盛世都只剩下无灵魂的躯体

>>其实我好累<<

我为你已经难过一遍又一遍，坦言了一次又一次，结果还是一样。

我爱你。只是我不想再浪费那些不被你珍惜的光阴

就像我之前说的，塑胶圈终有一天会撑开，那就是离开你的时候。

如果你看到这一片文章，我要你明白，不是我要放弃你，而是你先放弃了让我爱你的机会。

我已经撑得很辛苦。你不要，那我拿走好了。

真是的

感情这回事，还是最让人束手无策的趣事

‘小人飞散’

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继续冲刺阿小笨鸭！！